Comeback museum visit

It’s been a long while since I found myself in a museum or a gallery. I wanted to say “over a year,” as there’s this habit of always starting from the pandemics outbreak. But in fact, I have since been in a few museums. And yet, it’s been a while. There’s a lot of longing for being in presence of art. Something that I never thought about until last year.

I missed big spaces. I missed having nothing to do but walk around and see and listen. Hamburger Bahnhof was my comeback visit today. Things and art pieces that are uncommon and distanced from everyday. Abstracted from the “normal” of daily life and activities — even when they depict the everyday.

“How do you feel about this painting? About this sculpture?…” There is a certain reverence towards simple objects or themes, because they are placed in a museum. Sometimes you can’t tell if it’s a floor decoration or a piece of art. I appreciate it when you can interact with the art. But interaction is not necessarily touching it, climbing on top of it, or mending it. You can touch art with your mind, and more than that, let it touch you. There’s reverence, and then there’s playfulness. That’s what I like about contemporary or modern art — you don’t have to be all serious and philosophical around it. You are entitled to feel whatever it is you’re feeling.

Hamburger Bahnhof has a Joseph Beuys exhibition now. Some rooms left me puzzled, and that’s okay. That’s the conversation around art, you don’t have to be sure to fully get it. You can be left puzzled about it, you can try and find its secret, you can imagine what it is that art is hiding.

A random camera shot turns a simple object into art. And one can argue, that is the very essence of art, an idea that anything can be art, if you pay enough attention, if you treat it like one.

One space had Beuys’s handwriting and drawings on chalkboards. Strange how you perceive handwriting hanging in a gallery. Especially when there’s a whole room filled with it. You don’t read it. Traditionally, writing is something created to be read. But here, you try to take it all in. Not to read, but to watch. In this sense, writing is not to convey words, but to convey images, impressions. You perceive words in their purity, as form that is stripped of content. The meaning is broader than the sum of words. In fact, it’s something different from the meaning of words, and that is definitely part of the artist’s exploration of language.

How do you maintain a chalkboard as an art object? Someone has to care for it, to notice where lines and words are fading, and take a chalk to them. Long after the author’s death, the perishable chalk writings on boards remain.

Running. Four months in

When someone just started an activity or picked up a new hobby, and is now talking about it like they are an expert, giving out unsolicited advice — it’s so… lame, for lack of a better word. And yet here I am, with my freshly found running, writing about it. This is no advice, really — I hardly even have advice for myself at this point, other than, take it easy and keep running. The idea that I started something that I never thought I could, and it makes me feel great — it still is quite incredible. Maybe I need to see it in writing, to believe.

I dipped my toes in running last year, and it didn’t take. I enjoyed it a little, but also couldn’t run much. My consistent effort came about four months ago. In the February, I had five runs, for a total of 13 kilometers. My starting distance was a bit over two kilometers per run. March wasn’t better — four runs and ten kilometers total. Two months ago, in April, things started to pick up. I covered 30 kilometers, and in May, 45 kilometers. May also saw me run a 5k for the first time — completely unexpected. Now, my average, my “normal” run is about 30 minutes. Not always. Today, for example, I did a 25 minute run, and sometimes I run for 20 minutes. Depends on how much time I have and how sleepy I am in the morning. I can run every other day, and then not run for a week. In other words, it’s not like I’m training for anything, or getting a consistent effort. Yet, on a monthly scale, I’m getting what I want.

“Results” is not the best word to define this. Results are very much linked to goals. When there’s no goal other than enjoyment, it’s better to talk about “effects” rather than “results”. Effects that I felt from running so far are:

  • Increased energy levels. I’m less sluggish, and on most days, don’t tend to get sleepy after lunch.
  • Fun getting moving. I really enjoy the simplicity of it — repeated motions, getting the body moving, breathing, flying for those milliseconds when feet don’t touch the ground. The ease of starting a run. You put on your clothes, and shoes, and you use some sunscreen, and you go out. Everything else is optional.
  • (There’s definitely more than simplicity in the choice of running attire. It was also fun for a while: figuring out what shoes to buy, and getting amazed at the level of technological advancement that sports fabrics illustrate.)
  • The sweet feeling of being able to do something that until now has been a closed door. The sense of wonder and possibility.
  • I haven’t dropped any weight. But my form is changing, and I like it. Toned body just… feels great.
  • My nighttime heart rate is down, and my heart rate variability is on the upward trend. I guess, in many ways, my body thanks me.
  • Since I started running, I think I’ve become calmer, less reactive to the little everyday annoyances.
  • Another thing I run for is this feeling after a run — a mix of tired and energized. Taking a shower post-run is very different from just taking a shower.

I’m very far from the thought of running a marathon, or anything like that. There’s also no desire to always raise the bar. I am looking forward to uncovering all the lessons that running can teach me, that’s all. It’s a new side of life that I quote enjoy. And it made me pick up Haruki Murakami’s brilliant “What I Talk About When I Talk About Running.” I love it not for the running part, but for the brilliance of observation and thought. Now, also for running.

Getting yourself introduced to something not experienced before, starting something from square one, doesn’t make you a different person. Yet, it has a capacity of showing you that maybe you don’t know everything about yourself. Maybe the way you are used to thinking about yourself is not all there is to you, and to your life. With running, there’s always a new starting line to cross, and it’s always a little bit of dive into the unknown, that is exciting.